Im going to take a break Right?
But i'm still here. Hahaha.
I took decision to just edit and post everything in my mind.
Will be much hassle to redo another post.
Here it is a Air Batu campur of my feeling and My first trip to singapore!!!
That night, before going to meet with other arashian, i already feel bad. Not win the lottery and im worry that im alone!
Like before im okay with this but my lack of self confident become worst. I dont know why.
Everything twirling inside. When my sister drop me, we had argument- it my fault for using that word. I feel bad.
I can act like nothing happen but my inside just duh.
After meet up with other arashian i feel a bit okay. Lost in own country looking for a bus is cute. Hahaha.
We went and i still feel guilty and worry that i dont see them. Haha.
That morning is disaster, i dont planning on not taking a bath. Hahaha.
With previous mood, i like whatever happen will happen.
Bring too much bag. Everything feel not right.
Nervous? I think it just stupid.
Good that manage to keep the bag inside the bus.
When come back there lot of people already.
So went to sarah side. All this time i dont use internet.
How low function of my brain is when i didnt even remember we at the airport and have wifi??? -_-
If at least i have that, ill be walking around and probably have the courage to explore myself.
Point number one is probably im scared i will get lost.
I forgot to mention. After long hours of queuing, how can people just making another queue
and push like they going to eat by tiger?
There also people open the fence to enter? Im not blaming the fans. Its organizer.
I cant belief Arashi compliment them with the security.
The security is bad. They put us inside the cage xD
And being angry at us all the time.
Everything running fast, Arashi come and my short leg didnt allow me to see them.
My leg hurt for standing in fence. At the end i feel not that accomplish.
My brain told me i shouldnt come. Dam Ah.
Oh, sampai kl sentral. It my first time walking around ramai2 at 330 am? xD
I love that kind of adventure and waiting for the train to start it service at 6am also my first time.
Thank you for whoever accompany me that time.
About the newspaper, that morning while walking for my uni shuttle-
i suddenly stop a moment and look at this chinese newspaper , it by reflect and a glance.
I dont understand. Everytime i walk i know there seller, but that never happen to me.
I didnt buy though. Because why would i?? xD
Later on, there news about Arashi in chinese paper.
I relate and feel scared. Is it even possible ? The connection. Hahaha. Cursess...
It already 3 week since then right? Time running fast.
So today is the day Arashi post on YT about Arashi Jet.
I am stress and feel down. I know i should let it go and be happy.
Im okay for a moment and then im feel sad again. Hate myself for that.
So because of that, here my edit come from. To release all the pain.
Anyway, after thinking carefully the reason is because i feel angry and stress.
That morning when we arrived, i already scan the probability and the path, the chair the mc place.
Already told myself that they going to walk around that. But we doesnt know right. that moment.
The usual me from 3 years before when i am working, ill probably do whatever i want without thinking of anyone.
But i am become stupid and not having self confident when i am continue my studies.
Probably because i dont have wifi like i said before, Im just scared if i lost. Haha
Still, because of the view i choose that side and forgot that im short. I try to believe in my self for that judgement, but im wrong.
For number of times, even i feel there still time to get out, myself just lost hope and do nothing at the moment.
Thinking they will come soon. Then i feel sad and angry. Hahaha. Stupid.
I feel dont have a feeling to engange to anything.
I usually a person who will take a tons of picture before.
But here i have some and a toilet picture. xD
Honestly i feel it such a waste trip. Not because of the trip but because of myself.
However, it good to meet my fellow Arashian. How i miss them.
But by times, everything will not be the same right.
I probably cant enjoy them like before, but i cant leave them.
Its a curse from Arashi. Hahaha.
But blessed with a good Arashian it feel like i have also something to hold.
Im happy when they still remember me. The trip aside to meet arashi, i love to meet arashian.
Btw, i love the atmosphere. It nice with all the green three!
At the end, i think if want something i should be hard on myself and other.
Being soft is stupid. Maybe here in my uni, everyone is nice to me, that why i become stupid. -_-
I know i shouldnt say this, but if i afford going to thai, probably i can see my dear friend and i have better view of Arashi.
I dont believe in my luck, but i will keep praying.
Neverthelesssss, even im a bit genius, i being hard on myself or others. I will still complain and being sad.
That because i know i will become like that at the end.
I probably edit this post when i feel sad, anger and depressed. XD
For no i feel better. Fuh!
This is old post xD
Dapat jugaklah tengok. Penipuan itu semua bila kata diorang smoll.
Tengok macam artist sangat. Hahaha.
First impression they all sparkling. My eyes only stay at Jun and Sho.
Because it hard to focus when i need to step on fence for seconds and duduk bawah.
Then diorang yang paling dekat. Dengan jarak mata saya yang semakin kabur.
So bolehlah. Aiba tak nampak sangat pulak. huhuhu.
Sakit sampai harini ini kaki kanan saya. Tapi okaylah dapat jugak tengok sbb ade fence tu.
Tumpang sekaki picture ni. Tunggu punya lama.
Nak behave, tapi semua rasa not right dari awal lagi.
Huhuhu. (c) To friend for taking this picture.
So here the only photos i can see my tudung.
Smoll but well. Whatever. XD
(c) Arashi Twitter :b
Ok the close up of me. At least ade la kan.
Sedey R xD
For someone that make me happy, ill be happy for them.
For someone that me plus others depressed and sad , ill never be happy for them.
That will also come with curse and not so good word from me.
It as simple as that.